10 things that make me happy..

*hanging out with my friends..<3

*a winter-family-night in front of the fireplace..<3

*a cup of hot chocolate..<3

*dreaming...<3

*waking up in the morning,looking out of the window and seeing a white magic view..i love snow..<3

*swimming in the sea under the sunrise/sunset..<3

*a message from my boyfriend in the morning..the sweetest way to wake up..<3

*parties..dancing,the music,hot boys,drinking..oh i adore this stuff..<3

*hugs..<3

*being healthy..<3
*one more comment in my profile-photo(i am king of addicted to facebook.. :P )

i am cursed..and FAT!

sometimes i really feel cursed...i hate my personality,i hate my body,i hate ME..!why can't i feel for only one time THIN?or just NORMAL?deep inside i know that i have a normal body,with some curves..deep inside i know that i am not THAT fat...in fact i am not even chubby or something like this..i am normal..but i hate it!i want to be thin..i want to have an astonishing body..everybody tells me that there is no need even to put me on a diet..but i'm always on a diet..and when i eat 10 calories more than the estimated i hate me!i cry and cry and cry.........and this is what i'm doing right now..i can't stand it any more.. :'(

this song means everything...

this song is just written for my case..!it fits perfect to me and..him and to what i feel about him..pfff..anyway.. 

:S

"All the things I know right now,If I only knew back then..There's no gettin' over.."

-if i only knew that there would no be getting over..if i only knew that you are such an asshole..if i only knew it before i got in love with you.. </3

"Wish I could spin my world into reverse, just to have you back again.."

-if i had you back..i'd give anything to be yours again..i was yours..and i was excited!i was living in a dream..why did i have to wake up in so little time? </3

"Hey hey I cant forget you baby..I think about you everyday.."

-everyday,every hour,every minute,every second..you are my addiction..i hate you!i hate you cause you're not mine anymore.. </3

"I tried to mascarate the pain.."

-i tried so hard..i pretended that i was happy..and deep inside i was dying.. </3

"I'm a party, and party and party and party..."

-i try to forget you..i'm doing anything just to forget you for a while..every weekend i go to parties..the music,the dance,the drinks,the hot boys make me forget you..but it's just for a few hours..and then..pain,pain and more pain..! </3